For someone who pays for their kinks, while living an outwardly vanilla home life, Christmas can seem an endless stretch of enforced vanilladom. For me the only answer was to plan a kinky encounter as close to Christmas as I dare, something that would stay with me through the entire holiday period. My thinking centred on… Read More »
This post, which is entirely a fantasy, contains implied non-consensual violence that will offend some people. In fact, despite having written the post, it offends ME. It offends me because this is/was a fantasy of mine for years and, having written it down, I’m faced with the truth of what my fantasy actually means. That shocked me so… Read More »
I once told a beautiful escort, with whom I was lucky enough to be playing kinky games, that, of all her wonderful atributes, it was her back I found most enticing. Her shoulders slumped a little, perhaps disappointed that I seemed to have passed over her beautiful face, her outrageously spankable bottom and her sparky intelligence. But these attributes… Read More »
Why am I so nervous for this session? It’s not even me that’s getting beaten up. I’m seeing an American submissive, the beautiful Katie and, while I might let her hit me a few times, this is all about letting my dominant, spanky side out to play for a change. I’ve told her that I want a… Read More »
Sometimes a session will follow a set plan, carefully thought out beforehand, perhaps even written down. Sometimes a session will just evolve, the Mistress letting it develop its own rhythm in response to how she feels and to the reactions of her submissive. My last session with Mistress Elita was most definitely the latter type. I arrived… Read More »
I’m a masochist but am I really submissive? I have had a couple of attempts to answer that but still don’t really feel I have got to the core of the question; the exact nature of my kink. Does it matter? Perhaps not. These labels are useful only in so far as they set out… Read More »
In the end, submitting to Mistress Darcy, which I had expressed concern about before the session, seemed such a natural act that she had me within ten minutes of meeting her. The combination of writing down my feelings about the act of submission, the long build up to our session and her own strong presence in the… Read More »
I write this the day before my first meeting with Mistress Darcy. It’s a lazy New York Sunday morning. Great coffee in a boutique coffee shop followed by a Jazz brunch. Central Park later.
My ‘normal’ day to day life is a room painted vanilla. It has nice furniture and carefully chosen highlights in blues and purples. It is an altogether pleasant and undemanding room. In the corner is a closet. Once every month or so I enter the closet….
A scenario where one player appears, at least on the surface, to be forcing some action on another against their will can be the most thrilling of BDSM scenes. It requires trust, good communication and a deep understanding of where the submissive player’s real limits are. This little story draws somewhat on an actual scenario… Read More »
As a client I sometimes like to give feedback to a mistress on how I felt about a session. Some (usually the full-on dominas) seem to regard this as an imposition – others appreciate it and adapt the next session accordingly. Mistress Elita, to whom this feedback was addressed, is the latter kind. In fact… Read More »
When talking to a mistress I haven’t seen before I tend to describe myself as “not really very submissive” and “more of a sensual masochist.” This post describes a session with a wonderful mistress where I felt myself truly submit, maybe for the first time.