READY FOR IT

I guess that my session with Miss Hunter is the origin of the booking I have made to see Mistress Kikko here in Las Vegas later today. I wanted to experience that intensity, that energy, again.

In fact, I was hungry for it.

That session might also have served as preparation for this one. The spanking community, of which Miss H is a part, is a subset within the BDSM world, focussed on corporal punishment. In that world, one person is usually hitting another on the buttocks. A Dominatrix, as Mistress Kikko is (and Elita was), has at her disposal a much wider arsenal of ways to inflict pain.

And Mistress Kikko is exceptionally skilled in all of them.

So once again I am feeling that combination of nervousness and excitement as my Fight or Flight system wakes up and starts feeding low levels of adrenaline into my system. Despite having (yet another) poor night’s sleep, I feel fully alive and hyper alert. I am aware that she is going to hurt me, quite possibly hurt me a lot; she may well test my endurance in unfamiliar ways; afterwards I will probably feel drained, weary and small.

Yet, today, as part of this holiday, at this point in my life, this is what I choose for myself. I go into this feeling positive and excited; not seeking punishment or self-harm, but seeking exhilaration and self-affirmation.

This is what I want.

This is what I need.