Some may find this weird or strange – at times I feel that way myself. For much of my life the only outlet for my masochistic kink was self punishment. I started early, very early and progressed through a clothes brush, a riding crop, a switch cut from a willow tree and lengths of electric flex. It was always a sexual release ending in orgasm. Over the years, pain became a friend, offering stimulation, eroticism and release.
In a recent and particularly harsh, kidnap themed BDSM session pain stopped being a friend. All sexual excitement drained out of the scene and pain threated to overwhelm me and pull me under. Its a bit of a challenging read but it will help explain the picture below.
The day after the session, backside still bruised and sore, I returned to my oldest kink, hitting myself repeatedly with a heavy leather belt. The pain of it bought me to an explosive and satisfying orgasm, restoring a relationship that has been important to me for decades, but which I feared had been lost.
(I posed this image for Sinful Sunday 10 days after the kidnap session and the original marks have mostly gone.)
More, though hopefully less self-inflicted sin here:
Well written and interesting! I also have a favourite belt (not for me), and it’s never failed me when more complex things get too … complicated. Glad you’re back on good terms with kink!
I don’t think it’s strange at all, for years it’s the only way I had any experience before I found someone who could lend a helping hand, so to speak.
I’ve never been good at self whipping. I can manage with floggers a bit, but it’s more of a relaxation thing than a sexual thing. Belts are my button though. I can’t hear the jingle of a belt and not look up.
I use a flogger or crop on myself if I’m feeling in need of a bit of pain and don’t have a partner around. I don’t think it’s weird at all! Nice to know your friends are there when you need them.
Pain can be sexual for me but under the right circumstances. Spankings are amazing pain that offers relief, not in the form of orgasm but emotional. I love the residual soreness I feel when I press the marks left behind. It brings back the emotional relief I felt.
For me pain is all about the marks that it leaves. I do find the rush that the pain brings to be a huge release but my sexual excitement comes from the marks or even just the idea of them
Mollyxxx
I have never inflicted pain on myself, but I have sometimes wondered how it would be and what it would do to me if I used the belt on myself…
Rebel xox
Always interesting reading . . . and viewing . . . in your posts!!!
And happy that your belt was able to restore the equilibrium for you!!!
Xxx – K
each lash probably brings more pleasure than pain?
I wouldn’t cope without being able to administer pain to myself. For me, it is something that I try to avoid becoming habitual but I do need it. Certain types of pain are my friend.