THE WILLOW – (sinful sunday)

By | 3rd June 2017

For years, too many years, the only outlet for my kink was through hurting myself. A sub-kink developed (is that even a thing?): I found the act of making or buying implements with which to hurt myself became erotically charged in itself. It still is.

Now I see professional Mistress’s and submissives, making or buying an implement to be used in a session, whether on me or by me, is similarly charged. Selecting a vintage riding crop as a gift for Elita was a huge turn-on, long before she stood over me with it in her hands

So for this weeks “photography outdoors” picture I’ve returned to this kink, cutting matched switches from a willow tree to make a willow birch, if that’s not too much of an oxymoron (it shouldn’t be; Isle of Man punishment birches were mostly made of Hazel!).

willow birch

Why two bunches, one long, one short? Well I am finally going to play out this old hotel room fantasy with Mistress Elita and Miss S. The idea of leaving the longer birch on a chair for Elita to find when she walks into the room appeals to me – knowing exactly how much it will hurt when she uses it.

And the smaller one? That’s for Miss S.

And I know just how she’s going to feel in the time between reading this and our meeting. She’s going to feel exactly like me.

Of course, having gone to all the trouble of making a birch, I had to try it out. Just a bit.

You see, that’s how I am.

birch marks

When I started the blog, hitting myself was the most difficult thing to write about. It seemed somehow… weird…. in a way that paying someone else to hit me didn’t. Self abusive perhaps. I’m more OK with it now, partly through talking to sympathetic folk on Twitter who do, or have done, the same thing.


More sin here:

Sinful Sunday

10 thoughts on “THE WILLOW – (sinful sunday)

  1. Bee

    I have also tried the self administered kink, it doesn’t totally work for me but has been a stop gap between partners on occasion.

  2. Molly

    I am so tempted to attempt the same thing. I love the bircher than we have but I think this version of willow might be extra mean.

    As for the self administered pain, I have certainly done it on a number of occasions but I always found it deeply disappointing and so it was never something I continued with as it didn’t ‘feed’ that need but I can totally understand the motivation to do it and if it does work for you (which it clearly does/did) that doubly hurrah


  3. Marie Rebelle

    I adore those marks.

    On hitting yourself… I have many times wondered if I would be able to do it and sometimes I wish I could. However, I would never do it without Master T telling me to do so. Maybe I should write a post on this…

    Rebel xox

  4. LittleSwitchBitch

    We often go walking and my OH would get a piece of willow and spend the entire walk giving me a whack every now and then. Your images reminded me of that <3

  5. HappyComeLucky

    I love this. It reminds me of one of my posts last year where a switch was too tempting to resist while I walked through the forest. It didn’t make it home with me but I used it thoroughly before I broke it.

  6. Jaime

    Most doms also do a bit of self-whipping, just in testing new implements with a couple of licks so we’ve got an idea of how it’s going to affect the submissive. So I can agree that willow smarts like a bastard!

    Good photos!

  7. Elliott Henry

    Sadly, no mistresses on this island, but I like your idea about making your own switches or whips, and I enjoyed your story. I don’t know how sexy hitting myself would be, but I do enjoy some forms of erotic pain, like cords and especially a sharp W Wheel.


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